Aftermath of this cocktail, it’s taking me to the different places. One minute ago, I was in a couch, sipping alcohol like my throat is dried out because of thirstiness. I poured Jack Daniel’s and Vodka in my glass and start drinking like it is my morning coffee. One after another, even before I realised, I finished the 6th one. And my head start feeling heavy for a moment and it start slowing down. I felt like I am in a roller coaster and running in the speed of light. This universe, this world and everything around me, I felt everything is running so fast. Yet my thoughts were running in a slow pace. After a couple of round in roller coaster, my heart start pounding so loudly, and it felt like I am carrying an ice cold stone in my heart. It was heavy. I wanted to forget but I failed even after I emptied countless of Jack Daniel’s and Vodka.
Keeping myself busy in doing things that I love to do. Feeling myself lately 🙂 🙂
“The older I get the less I believe in promises.”
“With the scars you have there, you still look beautiful. Embrace it.”
“I’d be lying if I said I didn’t miss you.”
“As long as you have dream to achieve and you working for it, you are not wasting your life. Keep working and make your life worth livin.”
As they said, the pain is real in next morning. It’s true. I had an accident last night but it was minor. I could have died or the accident could be major if I wasn’t riding my motorbike in average speed. Got some minor injuries but the scary part is they said I blacked out. I tried to remember everything afterwards but I couldn’t, I just remember the car coming towards me and next thing I remember is I was on the road. They said I passed out for a couple of minutes until one old man wake me up. Even after the accident I was okay. Might be I don’t know how to react coz it never happened to me before, I looked alright. They said I look fine. And as being a martial artist, this pain looks familiar so I didn’t care much about it. But I end up going hospital anyway and everything went fine.
But this morning, this pain is kinda too much. Chest is burning, back are aching but I am trying to stay strong coz I know, I have been here before. I am familiar with this pain so I think I will get over it and it will heal like it supposed to(finger crossed).
“What goes around comes around”
Learn to love yourself first.
It’s part of a game. Yin and Yang. Love can’t be understand without the pain. Peace can’t be achieved without the war. There must be equilibrium. One cannot exist without the other. Like, to be a winner, there must be a loser.